i sit here and worry. i know worry doesn't change anything but i do it nonetheless. i worry about today, tomorrow, the past ..........you name it. i watch my children struggle..........i watch them hurt, scared, growing, learning...........i wish i could help..........i wish i could take all the pain, the worry, the fear so all they feel is what is good......but i can't. i can't really even try because it would be like helping a chick break it shell to hatch........they would never learn to fly on their own. but i still want to.........and yet..........i won't. i wish i could take back all the things i have ever said and done to hurt them............but i can't......i wish i could kiss it and make it better like i did when they were little............but i can't......this is the hardest part of being a parent........watching them grow..........rejoicing in their accomplishments..........crying with their sorrows......... but knowing it is from a distance now..........bittersweet..........it is good and it is tough..........letting go isn't easy.........