Aaahhhh!!! Winter is upon us! YUCK!! I hate the cold, the snow, the grey skies and everything else. The only good thing is Christmas. The bad part of that is Christmas is my mom's birthday. I struggle with enjoying Christmas ever since she passed away. I am doing better but there are still hurts that haven't healed. My biggest wish for Christmas is that somehow my mom knows that I have married a man who is wonderful to my children and very good for me.
Why is it that Christmas is such a pain in the butt these days. There is the never - ending hassle of family funtions, work, shopping, baking, decorating and school events. Sometimes the joy of the holiday is lost in the shuffle of busy-ness. In fact, most of the time it is lost. There doesn't seem to be time to just be. Maybe it is a lack of organization but I really believe that society as a whole has said " this is the standard for Christmas. If you don't do this you are not good enough." Well, bullshit I say!!!! This is the time for family. Not parties, gifts, decorations or anything. Whatever happened to just giving a small gift and really enjoying being together as a family???
My birthday is just around the corner and I have to say that I am thoroughly enjoying growing older. I wouldn't go back to being young because trying to figure out who I am and where I am headed is much clearer than ever before!!! Not that I have it all figured out!!! Not a chance, life always changes and so does figuring out who I am and where I am headed.